Friday, June 3, 2011
Im not crazy, Im just misunderstood....
I have been called many things in my life and my favorite by far is CRAZY. Usually I am called this when I am not doing what someone else wants me to do. For me, I would rather be crazy than be like everyone else. What is Normal anyways? From my observation (and in my very humble opinion), normal is not talking about your feelings; Normal is doing the same thing over and over and over; Normal is running through the rain to get away from it, Normal is watching reality tv to get away from whatever your own reality is; Normal is looking for quotes to relate to; Normal is feeling inadequate because the person next to you has more money, beauty or personality; Normal is smiling in someones face and talking about them behind their back; Normal is worshiping each other; Normal is telling lies to cover up actions and self; Normal is loving but with half of your heart worried about being hurt; Normal is making promises and not following through.....So for the next person that calls me crazy...YES, I AM ONE CRAZY WOMAN!!! I am crazy because I will cry, laugh and scream to get my feelings across; I am crazy because I will challenge myself by doing something different; I am crazy because when it rains, I would rather dance and jump in puddles than run to get out of it; I am crazy because I would rather figure out my own problems than watch how people do it on TV; I am crazy because I love me, the ugly me, the poor me and the stupid me; I am crazy because I do not keep people in my life that I do not feel are genuine and If I smile in your face, I genuinely like and appreciate you; I am crazy because I do not worship the things or people of this world, I worship GOD; I am crazy because I am honest with people about myself and my intentions; I am crazy because I love completely and throw my entire self into the people that I love; I am crazy because I do not make promises I cannot keep and I am crazy because I am not afraid to let YOU, who is reading this, know that I am crazy! Now, who else is crazy out there??
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Exhausting Awareness
I know many can relate when I express that being aware of the world can become extremely exhausting. As soon as we turn on the news, we see the cruelty, suffering and insanity that pollutes our society. Even in our personal lives, we hear stories about friends going through difficult times or we watch our loved ones lose battles against terrible diseases. Although we try to watch the sunrise and hope for better days, something awakens us to the reality of the day again.
I have yet to find a way to deal with the awareness of what kind of world we live in. I envy those living under that naive umbrella think it is all alright, or the ones that accept that nature is cruel and it is in our spirit that we find the morality of our lives. The awareness of it all is exhausting. I can see why people want to become numb to it all or try to seek out some kind of understanding through religion,meditation or therapy . For me, it is only faith and certainty. Faith that God hears my prayers for a better world and certainty that all of this is temporary.
I have yet to find a way to deal with the awareness of what kind of world we live in. I envy those living under that naive umbrella think it is all alright, or the ones that accept that nature is cruel and it is in our spirit that we find the morality of our lives. The awareness of it all is exhausting. I can see why people want to become numb to it all or try to seek out some kind of understanding through religion,meditation or therapy . For me, it is only faith and certainty. Faith that God hears my prayers for a better world and certainty that all of this is temporary.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Jesus
I don't like to discuss religion much, but this I have to get out of my head.
I am taking a journey to understand the concept of Jesus, the only son of God, who died for our sins. My current stand on Jesus is that he definitely existed, he was a spiritually enlightened man who we should strive to be like. He was a forgiving man who died for what he believed in. He had a strong relationship with God and he came to this Earth to show us all how to have THAT relationship with God. That has always been my opinion of Jesus. I know Christians would say I am completely wrong, but I cannot wrap my head around Jesus being the only son of God who died for our sins.
Although I have attended church, read parts of the bible and continue to listen to NPCC online, I still am not understanding the concept. More recently, I have prayed to God to please help me understand. I am hoping God's nudge to write in my blog will help.
So here are my questions about Jesus:
1. From my understanding WE are all children of God. So why do they call Jesus the only son of God?
2. Jesus died for our sins....we still sin, we even have the 10 Commandments to remind us not to. So how did he die for our sins?
3. Why are Jesus and God one in the same for Christians? God is the highest being, Jesus was a carpenter. Should we not only worship ONE God?
Ok God, now help me understand.
I am taking a journey to understand the concept of Jesus, the only son of God, who died for our sins. My current stand on Jesus is that he definitely existed, he was a spiritually enlightened man who we should strive to be like. He was a forgiving man who died for what he believed in. He had a strong relationship with God and he came to this Earth to show us all how to have THAT relationship with God. That has always been my opinion of Jesus. I know Christians would say I am completely wrong, but I cannot wrap my head around Jesus being the only son of God who died for our sins.
Although I have attended church, read parts of the bible and continue to listen to NPCC online, I still am not understanding the concept. More recently, I have prayed to God to please help me understand. I am hoping God's nudge to write in my blog will help.
So here are my questions about Jesus:
1. From my understanding WE are all children of God. So why do they call Jesus the only son of God?
2. Jesus died for our sins....we still sin, we even have the 10 Commandments to remind us not to. So how did he die for our sins?
3. Why are Jesus and God one in the same for Christians? God is the highest being, Jesus was a carpenter. Should we not only worship ONE God?
Ok God, now help me understand.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
What goes up must come down....
...and when you are down, there is no where else to go but up...CLIMB!
Nothing lasts forever, the only constant is change. Preparing for change is never possible, we can imagine what life would be like but we never truly know until we are in the experience. Once in the experience, we may look around and wonder how we have arrived at the present moment, we look into the memory bank and may be able to trace back the one decision which made us end up in the present experience. We play with the idea of making a different decision and visualize a different experience...only to remember we will never know about that experience because the present one is what is true.
Overwhelmingly noted, every trip down and every climb up is one step at a time. Although, the trip down feels like a literal fall and the way back up feels like a climb on Mt. Everest. Whichever way we are going, it is an experience with lessons to be learned and to be applied on the fall back down or on the climb back up.
Nothing lasts forever, the only constant is change. Preparing for change is never possible, we can imagine what life would be like but we never truly know until we are in the experience. Once in the experience, we may look around and wonder how we have arrived at the present moment, we look into the memory bank and may be able to trace back the one decision which made us end up in the present experience. We play with the idea of making a different decision and visualize a different experience...only to remember we will never know about that experience because the present one is what is true.
Overwhelmingly noted, every trip down and every climb up is one step at a time. Although, the trip down feels like a literal fall and the way back up feels like a climb on Mt. Everest. Whichever way we are going, it is an experience with lessons to be learned and to be applied on the fall back down or on the climb back up.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Hell
Growing up Catholic, we were always afraid to sin because it was guaranteed we would go to hell...unless of course we went to confession and told on ourselves, said a few prayers and went on our merry way. Although I have many issues with the Catholic religion, the idea of
hell and going there is one of my top 3 (1. Molestations by priests, 2. the amount of $$ the church has and 3. Hell!). As I have discussed in many previous blogs, religion has mastered the art of instilling fear to create order. The idea of hell has shown to be THE best tool to contribute to that fear; However, I would like to argue, there is no such place as hell after you die. Hell is already a place of existence. Where is it? It is in the evening news, where they report on people killing each other. It is in the statistics of how many people are going hungry every day. It is in the statistics of how many people are dying of terrible diseases like cancer, HIV/AIDS and Heart Disease. It is in the hands of a greedy man who would step on whomever necessary to make their millions. It is in the minds of addicts. It is in the intentions of malicious people who do terrible things to children. So instead of living life trying not to go to it, live life trying to be the solution to the problem. Donate, participate in charity work and bring those to justice who continue to contribute to that hell.Educate yourselves, keep an open mind and understand that God made this world but WE are the ones ruining it...not some devil character.
hell and going there is one of my top 3 (1. Molestations by priests, 2. the amount of $$ the church has and 3. Hell!). As I have discussed in many previous blogs, religion has mastered the art of instilling fear to create order. The idea of hell has shown to be THE best tool to contribute to that fear; However, I would like to argue, there is no such place as hell after you die. Hell is already a place of existence. Where is it? It is in the evening news, where they report on people killing each other. It is in the statistics of how many people are going hungry every day. It is in the statistics of how many people are dying of terrible diseases like cancer, HIV/AIDS and Heart Disease. It is in the hands of a greedy man who would step on whomever necessary to make their millions. It is in the minds of addicts. It is in the intentions of malicious people who do terrible things to children. So instead of living life trying not to go to it, live life trying to be the solution to the problem. Donate, participate in charity work and bring those to justice who continue to contribute to that hell.Educate yourselves, keep an open mind and understand that God made this world but WE are the ones ruining it...not some devil character.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Perception
We are all concerned about our "image" in some ways. Whatever it may be, financial status, physical appearance or intellect; We work on ourselves so others can have the perception we would like for them to have of us. However, when we really think about it, the perception
that someone has of us is influenced by the perception they have of themselves. It is not about if you really are what you want them to think you are. It is about how you fit into their perception of themselves and vise versa. As manipulative as it may sound, this all may be necessary. It may be necessary to create a version of yourself so you can be perceived as someone to be the perfect fit for a job, a social group or even another person. What is crucial though is how honest you are about YOU to yourself. Figure out the person you want to be for you and then be it; No facade and no perceptions! At the end of it all, the best part of your life is YOU:The person you see when you are alone, without the pressures of what you have to be for others.
that someone has of us is influenced by the perception they have of themselves. It is not about if you really are what you want them to think you are. It is about how you fit into their perception of themselves and vise versa. As manipulative as it may sound, this all may be necessary. It may be necessary to create a version of yourself so you can be perceived as someone to be the perfect fit for a job, a social group or even another person. What is crucial though is how honest you are about YOU to yourself. Figure out the person you want to be for you and then be it; No facade and no perceptions! At the end of it all, the best part of your life is YOU:The person you see when you are alone, without the pressures of what you have to be for others.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
WHO MADE GOD?
My son is 4, and as many parents know, this is the age of ASK A LOT OF questions.
It is amazing how many things he wants to know and very flattering that he genuinely believes
I know all of the answers to them. One particular question he asked made me really cautious as to what my answer would be. The Question: "If God made me, WHO made God?" Yes, he is 4 and that is how he thinks. I am very proud of his analytical thinking but this was a moment for me to make sure I did not plant the seed of my beliefs in his super absorbent brain.
So, I just told him LOVE made GOD. Thankfully, he did not ask any further questions. However, that question made me realize more people should ask themselves just that "WHO MADE GOD?". If we open our minds and look past our "religious" beliefs, we may be surprised at what we actually
find when we ask ourselves that question.
Although I do not have a satisfactory answer for this question I can definitely say depending on what GOD is to you, answers will vary, and when we decide to be honest with ourselves about this question, we may treat each other, ourselves and GOD differently.
It is amazing how many things he wants to know and very flattering that he genuinely believes
I know all of the answers to them. One particular question he asked made me really cautious as to what my answer would be. The Question: "If God made me, WHO made God?" Yes, he is 4 and that is how he thinks. I am very proud of his analytical thinking but this was a moment for me to make sure I did not plant the seed of my beliefs in his super absorbent brain.
So, I just told him LOVE made GOD. Thankfully, he did not ask any further questions. However, that question made me realize more people should ask themselves just that "WHO MADE GOD?". If we open our minds and look past our "religious" beliefs, we may be surprised at what we actually
find when we ask ourselves that question.
Although I do not have a satisfactory answer for this question I can definitely say depending on what GOD is to you, answers will vary, and when we decide to be honest with ourselves about this question, we may treat each other, ourselves and GOD differently.
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